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  1. View File Sexy Camgirl pees in another jeans Enjoy. Submitter ero9007 Submitted 05/27/2022 Category Female  
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  3. From the album: Nagito's desperate artwork

    This drawing I drew from @JamesC18's request is Brandish was despair to pee Thank you for your request @JamesC18san i'm so enjoy to draw her. ^^
  4. For those of you who don't understand where Chris comes from, this is the previous episode about Chris. Hope you enjoyed the fiction I made, thanks. Hey, we've met again, I'm Angelica. Today is a hospital holiday where I work, so I can wake up late. I woke up in bed at nine o'clock in a thin tank top and white panties.I came down from the bedroom and brushed my teeth and went to the living room and watched television and sipping coffee, about an hour later, there was a loud knock on my door. *knock* *knock* *knock* I was walking to the front and opening the door and behind the door was a elementary school boy around grade 4 and the boy greeted me. “ Hello sis angel. ” “ Oh Chris why are you coming to my house today? ” “ My parents went to work until it was late to come back, so I came to your house to cure loneliness. ” I didn't have anything to do either, so I pulled the door for Chris in. Chris entered the house and looked at the inside of the surrounding houses that he saw. “ What's wrong? Chris, come into my house first. ” Chris saw the clothes that I was wearing and immediately blushed I saw Chris's red face, so I thought a little bit teased him. I grabbed the collar of my tank and pulled it in and out to get the wind out. “ Haaaaa, it's really hot today. ” Chris immediately blushed even more. I laughed a little and took him to the living room and gave him some cold water and I continue sipping my coffee.Chris drank all the cold water I gave, and he walked close to me. “ Angel sister, let's play something fun. ” “ So what are we going to play? ” “ Is it good to play, chase, catch? ” “ Is it alright? You won't catch me in time. ” Chris paused and thought again what to play. “ Hahaha, so I'll reward you if you can catch me. ” I finished speaking and immediately got off, and Chris, who saw me coming off, immediately followed me, and of course he couldn't keep up with me, so I pretended to run slowly, and when Chris got me caught, I immediately accelerated and it was like this for about thirty minutes, I started sweating and panting a little, but Chris didn't seem tired at all. ( This is the power of a child. ) ten minutes later, I was exhausted and panting. Chris was about to catch me now. I was about to start running, but I couldn't step on my legs, and Chris finally managed to catch me. “ I have captured the angel sister. Come and reward me ” “ You cheated, chasing me with no rest. ” I told Chris and drank a big bottle of water to recover from my tiredness. “ But a promise is a promise, I'll reward you ” I walked over to the back of the sofa and was taking off my thin tank top and white underwear, laying it on the sofa and walking out to Chris, now I'm naked for him to see. Chris blushed as soon as he saw my pussy and chest, and was about to put his hand on my pussy but I covered my pussy with my white panties. “ Well, enough, that's it, I just show you, not to catch it. ” And I was back in the same clothes. As soon as I got dressed, Chris was no longer in the living room. “ Chris, where are you? ” “ I'm here ” Chris was in the corridor of my house and walked into the living room. “ Shall we watch television? ” I asked Chris and slapped the empty space of the sofa. Chris sat where I slapped. He looked embarrassed sitting next to me. “ Do you want to see something special? ” “ N…..No, sister Angel wants to see anything. ” I picked up the remote, changed the television channels all the time, and saw the movie I wanted to see. “ Do you look at this? ” “ Y…..Yes ” I took some water from the fridge to prepare for a movie and drank one before. The movie was going on and Chris and I took turns drinking two glasses of cold water until half the movie was about to go. I felt the ocean waves inside me.I wanted to pee, but I didn't want to miss the movie I watched, so I kept holding it. The movie progresses intensely. The ocean waves in my body were crashing non-stop, I became motionless and crossed my legs while sitting, but I wasn't the only one who wanted to pee. Chris, who was sitting next to me, was squeezing his thighs, and I asked Chris. “ Chris Do you want to pee? I saw you squeezing your thighs. ” “ Sis Angel is the same, isn't it? I've seen it since you've crossed your leg. ” I was speechless hearing Chris responding like this. Now the movie is approaching the Climax phase. The ocean waves inside me will erupt if I loosen my pussy I started filling my pussy with my hand and shook my ass. “ AH! ” The ocean waves inside me have escaped from my cunt, my underwear is all drenched in my sweat, so there are no dark spots on my underwear. “ Angel sister Are you ok? ” “ I'm fine Ah! ” I leak again, I can't focus on the movie now. Chris was also squeezing his hand on his dick, but he wouldn't go to the bathroom. It took fifteen minutes to finally complete the movie. The ending credit is moving up, I can see the end of the credit. Me and Chris rushed to the bathroom and me, but Chris stopped before reaching the bathroom. “ Angel sister I can't hold it ” And the golden liquid erupted from Chris' pants. His pants were noticeably darker. That noise made me very uncomfortable, and I could grab my hand on the bathroom bolt, but…… ( No, no, no, the door is locked. ) I ran to the locker and looked for the bathroom key, but I couldn't find it.So I ran to the spare locker, and my pussy was unable to resist the waves of my inner ocean, and a little spurt down to the ground. ( I can do it, I can hold it. ) I was easily able to find a spare toilet key and rushed to the toilet and the ocean waves erupted a little more. ( Don't come out Don't come out ) I got to the front of the bathroom and unlocked the keys in a hurry, now the ocean waves erupt, my pussy is nowhere to be eaten, and finally I unlocked the key. I opened the bathroom door and dropped my bottom. At the toilet bowl without having time to pull your underwear down or close the bathroom door “ Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ” I don't care if Chris sees my current state, just let me pee in the bathroom. I'm glad after a while, the pee sounded off.I got out of the toilet and walked to Chris. “ Would you like to take a bath together? ” I took Chris to the shower and pulled down his pants until he saw his lovely dick, and then we took off our clothes and got down to the bathtub. After the shower, Chris and I had to wear clothes, but his pants were still wet from the accident, so I washed his clothes and had Chris put on a towel. I was about to walk into the closet, but Chris grabbed my towel. “ I'm embarrassed to show you. Can you not wear clothes until my pants are dry? ” I lightly smiled and looked at Chris's face. “ You want to see my body again. Okay, I'll be completely naked too. ” I pulled off the towel that covered my body and pulled another Chris's towel. “ Now we can see each other's bodies. ” We waited until Chris' pants were dry. Chris and I were dressed back and walked over to the doorstep. “ Are you going now? ” “ Yes, my parents are returning. ” “ Goodbye, angel sister. ” “ GoodBye Chris ” Angelica closed the door and cleaned her house and went on with her life. End
  5. I went to work yesterday with a holding challenge. I allowed to pee once an hour but for only 10 seconds. I didn't change much on my daily liquid intake. I like to be desperate through the day any way. Today a wore a small diaper to protect against any leaks. Most of my job is sitting at a desk and scanning paper documents and saving them to .PDF files for our digital storage. All the files are about 10 - 20 pages. it takes a couple minutes for each packet to scan. (our company bought cheep slow scanners.. and slow computers). The plus side is that while the files are being scanned it gives me time to take a drink of coffee or water. I alternate between the two. I go through about 20- 32 oz of liquid an hour.. For the first couple of hours i wasn't desperate enough to use the potty so I skipped them. Half way through my shift (4 hours) it hit me hard. I was able to make it to the rest room and keep my self dry. My first 10 seconds of pee felt amazing but having to cut it off was a little difficult. The next hour I didn't skip. My bladder was defiantly full of liquid. Again a 10 second pee and the cut off was more difficult to accomplish. I wasn't sure I was going to be able to make it the rest of my shift at this pace but I continued with my challenge. I had two more hours to go and my full bladder was starting to mess with my head. I started to lose track of what files had been scanned and I even double scanned some files. When it came time for my next potty break i could barely get out of my chair wit out letting out a little pee. the walk to the restroom was more of a partly hunched waddle. My supervisor saw me and asked if i was ok. She probably noticed that i was going to the rest room a lot today. Quickly told her "im not feeling good" and continued to the restroom. before i was able to get my pants down pee had started to spurt out. I pulled down my pants and them my diaper (pee still coming out). It sprayed everywhere. On the toilet seat, on the ground, on it me and my pants. I gained control my penis and aimed at the toilet. I only counted to 8 due to the pee starting before the pants came down. When I tried to cut it off It didn't happen. I had to grab the tip of my penis to stop control. I clenched my pee holding muscle (don't know what its called) as hard as I could. It hurt but i was able to gain control. I then cleaned up the restroom as best I could. I dried off the little pee from my pants. (i was wearing black cargo pants do the wetness didn't show). When I exited my supervisor approached. In my head i was freaking out (OMG she knows what I'm doing). She told me that I could leave early and use sick time for the rest of the day. I cleaned up my desk, grabbed a bottle of water for the drive home, and clocked out. The commute was 15 minutes and by then end I was so desperate again. Just getting out of the car caused a small spurt of pee, and every step felt like i was about to lose control. I made it inside and got to the kitchen where we have tile floor. The wife greeted me and was surprised that i was home early. She commented "wow your belly is getting big. You need to diet" I told her that i was holding today and that's why i look so big. (She knows of my omo interest) She smiled and said she didn't believe that holding would cause that much of a bulge. I then let lose. The pee filled the small diaper quickly and my pants started to get soaked. When Iw as done the puddle covered half the kitchen. The wife was surprised at how much i was able to hold (first time she had seen me wet after holding that long). Then I squeezed my legs together to wring out the pee held in the diaper. I love that feeling. The clean up was fun too (for me) It took almost all the clean towels we had. Wife wasn't happy about that but I promised to do the laundry for a while to make up for it.
  6. A Sequel to The First Warm Day in April Lunch with a friend who knows nothing of my plans for later in the day: Caesar salad, tomato soup, talk about family and writing, a good balance of bragging and self-deprecation, the oil of most friendships. I order a large iced tea, drink it and a couple glasses ice water, two more than usual, in anticipation of fun times in the back yard on the first warm day of May. I am not going back to work after lunch. As we get ready to leave, I feel the itch and burn. I always go before even getting near a car but decide instead to drive home in a state of semi-desperation. Halfway home my jeans begin to dampen from spurts and leaks I cannot contain. They relieve the urge enough so I don’t wet the car seat, which I have no desire to do. The key, of course, struggles to find its way into the lock. Another spurt or two in my jeans. Almost before the door’s shut, I shed all but panties and T before fast walking through the kitchen, out the back door, and into what is a large yard for a small old house, a yard surrounded by a laurel hedge tall enough to keep anyone but a gentle giant from looking in, planted many years ago for privacy but without knowing it would be for this. The other houses at the back and sides are only a few feet away. There are second story windows and gaps in the hedge, so I’ve had to search for a spot for my Adirondack that will not offend anyone’s line of sight. As soon as I sit the t-shirt comes off. All that is left are panties and pale winter skin, as if some young vampire (perhaps one who wets as she bites) has had her way with me. A stream of piss bubbles up through the nylon like a little fountain before re-entering the briefs and running down my leg to the seat of the chair then the grass. I slip my hand between crotch and my briefs to enjoy the dampness of skin and hair, and that’s enough for now. After the piss cools, I pull off my Hanes to kneel naked in the grass, bare ass to the sun, to take these photos, front first, then back – I have a cigarette, down a lemon La Croix and an instant coffee, eat a piece or two of chocolate, put on sunscreen, lean back, put my feet up, enjoy the warmth of Pacific Northwest sun on bleached skin that will burn before it tans. I piss myself three more times in the next hour or so, the second time, naked, legs crossed and to my surprise a little yellow lake forms in the V beneath my crotch. I slowly part my legs and the little lake drains. I wipe the piss from my thighs, where it's merged with sunscreen to make a creamy lotion. Fifteen minutes later, I soak the panties and the chair again. The photo below only captures the damp remains, but I still like it. Next time, I will try our old white wooden Adirondack instead. I take a quick dip in our old two-person hot tub to rinse off the lotion and piss. I shower and pull on soft black running shorts, a t-shirt and nothing else. In an hour I’ll get dressed for dinner with my partner/spouse/friend, G., who says of my new interests – “We’re evolving, I guess.” But G. has no idea quite how far I’ve evolved and would be more than a little dismayed at the way I’ve spent my afternoon, and this, I think, is OK, for the gap between knowing and secrecy is central to who we are. To be fully known, to ourselves or others, is a kind of death, while to be partly known, and not despised, to be seen and not cast out, is perhaps what makes a fierce and gentle fetish an act of erotic grace. (This last is philosophically pretentious I know, but perversion cums in many different forms.) I return, on an impulse, to the still damp chair and wet my dark dry shorts. I leave them and the Hanes in the sun to dry, then pull back on the jeans I wet on the ride home. They are almost dry now, but if I look closely I can see the slightest outline of a soft stain where yellow and blue merged. Beneath my Levis, thin black lace. That night, as I sit with G. at a performance, a slight musty smell -- some combination of sun and grass and pee -- rises from my crotch. Can anyone notice it? Like the chair in the back yard, I want to be on the edge of sight and smell, or let’s admit it, a bit over that edge, as long as I don’t offend. I’ll wear these jeans the next day until on a walk after dinner I try to create an inconspicuous patch of wetness between my legs. Failing that, a half-block from home, no one in sight, I let loose. Drenched from crotch to knees, I am almost there, but then a Camry appears out of nowhere and before I can cross the street to the porch it oh so politely stops to let me go. Once I do it does not drive on, but parks in front of my house. I cannot see the driver, but I am pretty sure it’s the matronly mother of the cute young wife who lives next door with her cute young husband. I use my sweater to partially hide the unmistakable stains, but not so much that as I enter the house I can wonder how much my young neighbor’s mother saw of my humiliation, if she, perhaps, had noted the unfortunate accident I’d had on my walk, looking, then looking away, then looking again at me and my jeans, more curious than she wants to admit.
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